There's something that is worrying me, but I can't say what. There's something in my own mind that I cannot read, decipher.
Something's not right - it has just not been right for the past 2 months. Is it just the phase or beginning of one. I really don't want to know anything unpleasant or even remotely painful. I don't want pain anymore. I am scared she will be back again.

Sometimes, I ask myself. Do I really know you well? Or should it be the other way. Do you really understand what I feel? ... what I go through each time, you look away.

There are things I will never bring up. There are things that I will never want to read in me. Yet some more thoughts I will never put to words.
Because I am scared to trust you. It is my own ineptitude, probably. But I still will not.
I know you will go away very soon. I will not hold you back.
Here... let me try helping you go away sooner. If it's painful - for you, for me, for anyone - let it be.
We don't need it anymore.

Goodbye. We can never be friends, no matter how much I lie to convince you...