Sometimes we blame it on stuff like some things that lead to some more, but what we become in the process is what we have been ignoring a long while... Somethings that change a part of you... the way you see yourself...
And you almost start hating yourself and things related... This, my friend, is just the beginning.
I don’t know if I’ll ever be the same again… Not that these were unheard of. But the seemingly innocent flow gets this stark shade of all things crude.
You never meant to be there.
You never wanted to go through that.
You never thought it was that… But you didn’t do anything to get out of there.
Can you re-trace your steps back to where you were early last morning?
No, I can’t. Wtf?!!
And what was it? Do you want to remember…? Yeah, right… Just vanish… just… do it – vanish!
You want to run away from the ‘now’ … and yeah, f*** you can!
Take this ‘me’ away… I don’t know her… don’t even want to know.
And the mother of all questions… Why me? Why the f*** yesterday? And why did it have to end like that??!!
It should NOT have happened… NOT NOT NOT happened… But it will NEVER change…
And it was my fault more than anyone else’s… Much much more. I knew. I never wanted it but I knew… I always knew.
10th Jan… will go down as the Most Despised day of my Life so f***ing far… And it will always remain so…
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